Sara's Ramblings

Monday, January 31, 2005

Love, Break Me

Mark me with Your grace
Shape me in Your wisdom
Place in me a heart
Of mercy
Open up my eyes
Let me see Your glory
Lead me to the place You want me

Love, break me now
Strip me down
May Your beauty deep inside of me resound
Through me be found
Come break me now

Guide me in Your truth
Mold me in Your nature
Birth in me a hope to hold on
Show me how to wait
Teach me how to listen
Be in me the strength to let go

Love, break me now
Strip me down
May Your beauty deep inside of me resound
In me be found
Come break me now

Love, hear my plea
Rescue me
Bring Your peace
I have come to You on bended knee
I’m desperate for Your breath in me
Your ears to hear, Your eyes to see
Set me free, come set me free

Like the rain flowing over me


- Tim & Jon Neufeld

Yeah.

Saturday, January 29, 2005

The Habit

Yay it's the weekend! And I'm at work. So the two cancel each other out. But that's ok. I'm taking a break from the data entry so that my brain keeps itself turned on :). Technically it's called a "coffee" break, but I don't know how to make coffee so I'm doing this instead. Because Stef has been harrassing me (and yes I would call it harrassment). It's ok... she claims she's dying, so I must do what I can to appease her.

I'm listening to Laurell Hubick right now, and I quite like her. In fact, I really, really like her. I met a Stabilo fan in one of my English classes and we've bonded over our common love for good music. Turns out she goes to North Shore Alliance, and I asked her if she knew Laurell, and lo and behold she did indeed. One thing led to another and we traded Kitchen Sessions for The Fool in Me. And everyone is happy! I saw Laurell last year at a Stepping Stones fundraiser and I think she has such a pretty voice. She makes Tomko sound nicer.

Yesterday was a long day. Bus from 7-8 30, class from 9-11, course planning from 11-1, class from 1-4, group project from 4-5, course planning from 5-6... and then Megs came out to UBC and we went to Cold Fusion. Yippee! It was a last minute decision, but it's one that I'm glad I made because I really, really like one of the bands that was playing. They're called Stabilo.

Some band opened everything up and they were umm. Whatever. I think they were called John Johnson or Jack Jackson or Bob Bobson. Something like that. Then STABILO was up and they sounded stupendous as usual. What I love, love, love, about them (well one of the things) is that you can see them twice in two weeks and the sets will be totally different. Different songs, different vibes.

Anyway I'm glad I went. I wasn't planning on it, but then decided that I should. I was there and it was only 2 hours away. Too convenient to pass up.

OK time to get back to it. I'm updating the golf mailing list. You would not believe these golf pros. I can't imagine some of the names they have. Like Trent and Slade and Muncie. I wonder if they're real names, or if these men just read romance novels for their inspiration.

The best name I've EVER come across at Tomko in my years here is a Mr. Bilzac Chandrachud. And I actually met him so I know it's not made up. How cool is that? Answer: Very. Donalda Laliberte takes second place. Try saying that fast seven or eight times.

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Morning Emails III

At least I think it's Morning Emails III... whatever. This one's a thinker! Ha! Right - On.

I'm moving out of Ashlee's today and I cannot believe it's been nearly a month... I guess it's been - let me check - 24 days. Crazy! If we were to be living together for an extended period of time, we'd have to pow wow about a few changes that I would require, and I'm sure she'd have some as well. But the fact that this isn't OUR place, this is HER place means that I just let a lot of stuff slide. And the fact that I was essentially a HOUSEGUEST not a ROOMMATE means that she lets a lot of stuff slide. It's not so cut and dry, but we got along rather well.

My mom is really excited about me coming home. I think it's cute and funny. I was living about 5 minutes away... she said she had to stand in the doorway to my messy bedroom and pout. :). Sounds like Mom!

What will she do if I get accepted for this exchange? I have to drive out to campus for a question and answer session about it today... I've been working on it a lot in the last few weeks. Ooooh man I hope that it works out. I think it would be great! Lavonne just got back from doing a semester in Lithuania through TWU and she just has some incredible stories. Overall, she says "DO IT." YES SIR! I found my references, thank goodness, now I just have to convince them that I'm an exceptional person; intelligent, well-rounded, service-oriented. Let me rephrase: Now I just have to lie ;). Kidding, I hope. I'll just bribe my way onto that plane! :D!

I'm listening to Sarah Slean. I have heard of her many times, but never listened to her work. It's different than I expected but quite pretty.

Speaking of new things - I'm reading this book for one of my English classes and it so, SO funny. Really interesting, especially one of the many story lines that's happening in the text. The Lone Ranger, Hawkeye, Ishmael, and Robinson Crusoe and trying to retell the first few chapters of Genesis and it's... just so out there. Actually, here's a bit of it, just for s and gs -



First Woman's garden. That good woman makes a garden and she lives there with Ahdamn. I don't know where he comes from. Things like that happen, you know.

So there is that garden. And there is First Woman and Ahdamn. And everything is perfect. And everything is beautiful. And everything is boring.

So First Woman goes walking around with her head in the clouds, looking in the sky for things that are bent and need fixing. So she doesn't see that tree. So that tree doesn't see her. So they bump into each other.

Pardon me, says that Tree, maybe you would like something to eat.

That would be nice, says First Woman, and all sorts of good things to eat fall out of that Tree. Apples fall out. Melons fall out. Bananas fall out. Hot dogs. Fry break, corn, potatoes. Pizza. Extra-crispy fried chicken.

Thank you, says First Woman, and she picks up all that food and brings it back to Ahdamn.

Talking trees! Talking trees! says that GOD. What kind of a world is this?

"Did someone say food?" says Coyote.

"Sit down," I says. "Boy, this story is going to take a long time."

So that good woman brings all that food back to Ahdamn. Ahdamn is busy. He is naming everything.

You are a microwave oven, Ahdamn tells the Elk.

Nope, says that Elk. Try again.

You are a garage sale, Ahdamn tells the Bear.

We got to get you some glasses, says the Bear.

You are a telephone book, Ahdamn tells the Cedar Tree.

You're getting closer, says the Cedar Tree.

You are a cheeseburger, Ahdamn tells Old Coyote.

It must be time for lunch, says Old Coyote.

Never mind that, First Woman tells Ahdamn. Here is something to eat.

Wait a minute, says that GOD. That's my garden. That's my stuff.

"Don't talk to me," I says. "You better talk to First Woman."

You bet I will, says that GOD.

- Thomas King, "Green Grass Running Water"

And it goes on like that at various points in the novel. As of right now it's a mix of Canadian Indian creation myth and the stories we read in the Bible. Later on, Moby Dick and Moby Jane (har-har) show up and things start to get really interesting.

I'm looking forward to actually studying this book a bit. It's just so weird.

Anyway, much to do, much to think about. The last few days have given me SO much to try to wrap my head around; kind of cool but at the same time it seems a little bit daunting. My poor brain.

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

"Hi, I'm calling from CBC News..."

Hahahahaha! I just got off the phone with a lady from CBC and she was looking for some information on the whole trampoline scandal (my words, not hers). This is becoming more hilarious by the second. I hope they call back and ask for a statement:

Sara: Jumpking is my mortal enemy.
CBC: Can I quote you on that?
Sara: Oh yes. Yes you may.

My dad left for Orlando this morning so he doesn't know about any of this. Nicki and I are arguing over who has to tell him. We could just NOT tell him, but if people are asking for info about the company for news releases and stuff, I guess we probably should...

Plus if he doesn't give us some direction, I can only see one possible outcome:

CBC: Nicole Lockson and Sara Macdonald of Tomko Sports have organized a massive press conference today to comment on the trampoline epidemic...

This is too funny.

"YOU HAVEN'T SEEN THE LAST OF ME!!" laughed the trampoline maliciously.

So. So.

So.

Thinking back to happier times, I should have known better... the glorious news that Tomko was not dealing with Jumpking this year, I should have realized it was too good to be true.

Aaaaaaand, they're back. It started at about 9 this morning when the first call came in:

"I heard there's a recall on the trampolines you sell."

Less than a minute later:

"Hey I was listening to the radio and they said that the Jumpking trampolines are defective. Is that true?"

After a little bit of detective work, we found this:

http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2005/01/25/national/main669063.shtml

It was nice of Jumpking to let us know. Oh wait, they didn't. Grrr. I have a sneaky suspicion that this is not the end of the story. I called Jumpking and the woman was somewhat less than informed. When I asked her what model numbers we were looking at, she replied, "I don't have that information". Spectacular.

So the Jumpking trampoline, the bane of my Tomko existence, is rearing its ugly head once again, this time a few months early, just for good measure.

Nicki (my boss) and I are going to take turns hanging one another I think.

Monday, January 24, 2005

"Lamech is just a killing machine... kind of like road rage." - AG

I wonder if it's possible to make yourself smarter... I know you can learn more and gain knowledge, but can you train and "exercise" your brain so that the level at which you synthesize information, and the speed at which you obtain it is greater? It's said that we only make use of a small percentage of our brains. Wouldn't it be cool if we could somehow engage more of it? I think I'd like that a lot.

So I wonder how one would go about doing that. Extended TV-watching is probably NOT helpful; I know that much... it probably causes the brain to eat itself or atrophe. Is the brain like that? Is the brain a muscle? Kiri? I'm going to have to visit Wikipedia.

I like to ask questions. John sick of me and gave me his "How Things Work" book, which is a quite an asset when you can't sleep because you don't understand how a combustion engine works. Not that I really have a tight grasp on that. Poor example. At least I'm more informed than I once was.

Unfortunately for me, I don't think there's an entry on how exercising your brain works. Could be, I guess. I'm still at Ashlee's so I can't consult the book :p.

What brought this on, you ask? Or maybe you don't ask. I'll tell you either way. Well firstly, I want to be smarter, or at least learn how to harness some of the potential that I may (or may not) possess. Secondly, I just plain really like to think. And finally, I picked up a book today called "Synaptic Self", which has renewed my interest on the subject.

I also got "Fundamentals of Musical Acoustics". There is a third year physics class at UBC called The Physics of Musical Sound, and I WILL take it. But let me clarify... I certainly won't pay to fail a class. If it's a big class I'll just sneak in and sit there listening. And if it's a small class then I will investigate how one would go about auditing it. In fact I'm going to look now.

OK so I can audit it as long as I can convince the instructor that I have a desire to learn but don't feel that I'm qualified to take the class and pass it. Done and DONE. I'll have to work on that for next year.

Hmmm. So SYNAPSES and SOUND PRESSURE. Sounds like a full plate for a girl who cannot for the life of her make a distinction between this Friday and last Friday... that's a funny story with a sad, sad ending. BUT! Maybe I can print out the emails and pass them along to the Physics 341 prof in order to convince him that I would be unable to pass his course... sigh. I stand by the fact that I earned a spot at UBC and that my dad didn't just promise to build them their own international airport.

Sunday, January 23, 2005

Word of the day: MESOPOTAMIA

Today I choose to follow You / Today I choose to give my yes to You / Today I choose...

And I believe / And I will one day see / My God / In the fullness of His love / Jesus...

Revive us again...

I've lost myself for good within Your promise / And I won't hide it / I won't hide it...


Sooooo I didn't make it to GW this morning except to retrieve mein Buch. I went to Andrea's instead and picked her up for church. My left blinker / signal isn't working very well at all, though I've discovered that if I really pull on it and hold it down it will still flash. Kind of annoying but also funny :).

Church was good. Ross was very engaging, I found. Maybe it's because what he was sprechening about was interesting to me. Of course, this is usually the case. He's a dense preacher, but if you can follow, you can learn a great deal. The worship was really quite fantastic as far as I'm concerned. The more I do sound, the more critical I become of the things that I hear and sometimes it gets a little bit distracting. But I was so captivated by the piano that everything else went out the window!!! The thing is, secular music can affect me as well... so I don't know if it was at first simply that the piano player is so freaking good. But then I did engage in some good worship. It was neat to see Andrea there, dancing around beside me. Good to see her let loose!!!

Hahahaha!!! Best part of the day - when I took Andrea home, I popped in to see my precious baby Kyra, and there, lo and behold, was the BOY, on his hands and knees scrubbing the toilet!!! MWUAHAHAHAHA just where he SHOULD be. Darn... did I type that? Yes, yes I did. I don't hate him. I just dislike him quite a lot at the moment.

Hmmmm I didn't do very much else at all today... did some schoolwork (which has been quite pleasurable to be honest!) oooooh and I did some singing. Let me please tell you about the studio. Well it USED to be a studio, now it's just Ashlee's family room. It has the most beautiful acoustics - it made me really, really happy! The house itself was built by her Grandpa Looyen and he was an artsy fellow to say the least. He played the organ and the piano and he was an artist. In fact, the house is full of probably like 50 of his paintings.

Anyway. There used to be a huge organ whose pipes went up to the ceiling... I'm going to measure it, but I'm fairly certain the ceiling is 15' high. So you can imagine that this was a huge chunk of organ. And then there was a black grand piano set up in the middle ish. And on the other side, by the window (basically where I'm sitting right now), was an easel and all of Grandpa Looyen's artsy supplies. Sigh! I wish it were still like that now. I mean, Megs and I couldn't have danced last night, but we could have done some tipsy jamming or something ;).

Some things that Brea said today that I found amusing:

(This is a pretend conversation):
Brea: I want some Timbits
Clerk: Anything in particular?
Brea: No, just a mix. You can surprise me.
Clerk: OK no problem
Brea: Oh, by the way, I'm extremely diabetic and deathly allergic to sugar. Is that going to be a problem?

-and-

Sara: Yeah I'm going to lose all of my Heaven Dollars after I milk this one
Brea: Yep. One Heaven Dollar is going into the Hell Bucket!!

Hmm. I need to get her and Kelly together and see what they can come up with.

Alright that's about it from my neck of the woods. Oh but I'm going to measure the ceiling... brb... alright it's actually 13 ft. What I time I had measuring that little bugger. I was victorious though, despite Ashlee and her friend Stephanie making fun of me. Jerks. HAHAHA.

Uhh... by the way - sorry to those who got the text messages - I won't do that again... Also, Meghan apparenly got into the ol' email account so I'm not responsible for her!

Cheers!

There are worse thigns!

yeah like that is my bgreatste secet! ther are more improtant things than that. ashlee is driving megs home. and id dyou know that ashlee isn't even her real name? well as long as we're selling SECRETS i mean. gah. she's a silly girl but she's got a great heart and i'm glad that she has a big studio in which to DANCE.

ooooooh i get to go to church otmorrow! well i guess it's todfay. i'm so looking forward to that. i like church a lot. ross is very challenging and makes me want to really DELVE into what the Word of GOd has to say. but ashlee needs to stop threatnine to tell pelpe because that's mean of her!11 hehehe. to be honet i dn't really care. i'm appalled at my lack of eloquence and grammar dam,mit i hate iut when peole can't spe,l things.

i have to go to gw in the morning so i must bid you adieu ... KIRI I MISS YOU AND I'M SO GLAD THAT YOu ARE HAVING FUN IN CALGARY BE SAFE THOUGH OK SWEETIE? AND I'M EXCTIEDA BOUT YORU NEW BOYFRIEND!!!!!!! YIPPE. AND THE bleep IS STILL A bleep iof you know waht i mean.

MEGS YOUA RE THE EBST DANCEER EVER.

can you belive i've only had a few to dirnk? i't slike coffee.. vereeeeeey potent. at least i nkow i'll be a cheap date when i stop being a spinster

She's dancing now!

This is Ashlee typing now... I was being a loser and trying to write an essay for my class on monday (no chance of that tonight) and i heard this booming noise... now what could it be? An earthquake? My dumbass dog ramming his head into the fridge? No, it's no other than rave music and the amazing dancing Sara and the magenificant Megs... dancing their drunken hearts out...
Now... to the evils that I can do by taking control of this blog! MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Oh crap.. I just remembered something... I'm not drunk... and I'm not trying to sell anything... so I have no excuses to tell the complete and utter truth about Sara's greatest secret... who she likes... that's right... I've been selling her secrets... mif... there are worse things to do to your roommate/friend... :)
They have just successfully hi-fived each other... i know that this does not sound like a feet of amazing accomplishment but in their state itis.... Oh Lords above... they are line dancing.... Wait a tic.. their in time... and doing it well... They are doing the Calladac Ranch... I've just been informed that out here it's the Elivra? What the hell is that? It's not even a country song... and Line Dancing is country, Thriller, and the Macarana.... nothing else... I've got to get ready to drive the amusing Megs home...
Slainte.
Ashlee

Saturday, January 22, 2005

the dicatapbon!e!

i a mdrunmk. with meghsna. ashele is watching dogdema dl and laughning and thte both of us. megs has gotten a hold of jy email address and i feel a need to entuer her. does this soudn right? ashele is telilng me what to type and she is typing out word for word so if tehre are any explevives like bleeep it is because this is what ashlee has seida. it in no way reclfecs the opinions of sara.

what siels is there got sy?! well one i have to make gummy bear juice for you guys. yhse i ca nm meakd eufmy sutie cor you fusys. hs'e going to make me jummy gujioce!!! gummy guice!!! juice!! sunliminy. SUMBLIMINY!

scres essgase. I LVOE YOU!!!!!!! and meghan loves. ahslee sloves all bosy ebcause she is a hotsy totsyu. chicka. AND I LOVE YOU !!!! not in love but love. as a persond. not as a lovert. yhet! says meghan. MEGNAN. haha! soon we will have sars tre a meand love!


we qaer plottonig to make it happen now;.!shalsle's gshboulder isd nice and softr for layhing my head ont!@!! ui amd going tosea yd toinet08asidhjt nw.....~!!! but ui'll be back!!!

ta - tal!!! i wil erase this later!!! love yhou love you l9ove you love you love you love you love you love you love you!!!!!

Kelly

Things that Kelly says that are funny:

"Hey Monkey Man I like your panties! But you might not want to leave them near the window - it's too easy to steal them!"

"I'm looking for a knife. One that is sharp and economical and capable of cutting through human bone. I intend to use it a lot, so we'd better make it durable. Keep in mind that I'm weak... do you have anything in a nice, light titanium?" (Kelly asked me if I would give her 2 dollars to go and ask this of the man at the knife shop. I quickly decided it would probably cause more problems than the laugh would be worth...)

I don't understand where she comes up with these things, but it certainly makes for a more interesting car ride...

I left "Dubliners" at GW and I don't want to go back there and get it. Dammit Sara! Engage your brain!

Thursday, January 20, 2005

One Million Voices

This is for Miss Zahida Pants, who will go Sara-less for two whole weeks. Sheesh, woman, you talk as though I'll never see you again!

Key events... umm let me see if I can focus.

Rock for Peace brought in just under $2500 and 350 people. Freakin' fantastic.

Bye bye, Whistler House. My parents accepted an offer yesterday for the good old "log cabin" up in the mountains. I'll certainly miss the dear, but that money is going to be really quite something... I suppose we'll see what happens. It means that we won't be going up there in February so I'm going to have to find some way to use my three days of Whistler skiing that I still have this season. Anyone really suck at skiing and want to suck with me? Maybe I'll drag Megs up there. She doesn't suck, but we'd still have a good time mwuahahaha.

I worked today at Tomko. It was great to see Nicki again, and because it's so cold in the warehouse, I didn't have to even set foot in there. I did some fairly mundane tasks, but I like the mundane once in a while, for it allows me to think.

So. I went to see Hotel Rwanda last night with Trevor. It was good - not in a "oh I feel good after seeing this film", but I think it was in itself, well done. Does that make sense? Not a perfect movie of course, but what movie is? It really... I don't know... there were a few times where I was lost in feelings of helplessness... and then I was filled with hope... I don't know. I just don't know.

I don't understand how people can be filled with hate like that... I don't see how people can believe those lies. I wish people would just love each other. (Yeah, isn't that the understatement of the century.) Dammit. It frustrates me.

I think it's important to challenge yourself and to watch things like Hotel Rwanda - it's Hollywood-ized, but you can still see that it's important to not forget the mistakes of the past. But then you look at what's happening now... in the Sudan, only one of several examples. $2500 bucks. That's pretty great right? But is that going to change things? No, of course it isn't. The problem with thinking and dwelling in all of this is that it makes all of our efforts seem so futile and it makes me want to not do anything. "So God gave me some vision, so what?" It makes me want to cloister myself up in my house and do nothing. Then there's a part of me that says, well, it's $2500 that they wouldn't have had if so many people hadn't decided to care just a little bit. "So God gave me some vision, so let's go!!" Again, I don't know what to think. I'm such a mess of thoughts whenever I try to tackle anything substantial. Maybe that's why I tend to stick to the likes of Spongebob and Co., where their problems can be solved in 8 or so minutes. I feel like I need to run into battle, try to fix something, anything, but I kind of want to hide as well. Like, if I don't SEE the problem, then it isn't there... I'm an ostrich, what can I say?

I've been thinking that I should start a blog called Sara's Rantings hahaha. Then I can delve a bit more. I probably think too much and I need to get it out :p. Even in reading what I've just written, I wonder if this is how I really feel. Interesting.

But anyway, I have class early again tomorrow... night night.

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Rock for Peace

Well it's been a few days, but I figured I needed to write that paper before tackling the good old blog.

So, looking back and digesting and debriefing, I would have to say that the entire experience has been exceptional. I still can't believe that this vision in my head became a reality. I can try to take as much credit for it as I want, but the way that everything worked out, well God and I both know that He had His hand in it. In a major, major way.

Anyway. The afternoon of the concert was really busy, but somehow not stressful. I was stressed for the entire week leading UP to it, and then on Saturday I was running around and yet calm. Go figure. I'm really glad about that though, because there was a LOT to do. Chris and Trevor showed up nice and early and got to work on setting up the stage and the equipment. They rock. They really, really do. We yanked the guardrails out in the Pit and some sort of digusting creature / meatball / hairball fell out and made the entire place smell like... death. I was thankful to be in and out and not in the pub for the whole afternoon!

I think I probably used about 20 bucks worth of minutes on my phone... it was ringing like crazy and I am even more convinced that I need to search for a better ringtone. Something like "ring, ring" would do me just fine.

One of the speakers ran into an emergency so he had to cancel. Cara was trying to print out the info sheet that one of the other speakers had emailed her; Gina was buying stuff, and Garang... I don't know where he was, but everything was still coming together. Gina arrived and we got the green rooms set up.

Chris and Trevor had the tech thing so under control. It relieved me in a major way. I'm not sure what kind of role I was supposed to play in that aspect of things. I figured I should just leave them alone, so I did... other than bringing down some Kleenex. The bartender was such a sweetheart and kept my glass full of cold water and lemon. Colleen (the assistant manager whose title conveniently abbreviates to Ass. Manager) wasn’t going to be showing up until later.

Stabilo came a little bit late (but when do people arrive on time? It never happens), and I got them set up with their tickets and gave them all the info they needed. I'm such... Hmm. They're my favorite band, right? So it's really strange taking a role where I'm... doing "business" with them. Does that make sense? It struck me that while this was my *ahem* 19th time seeing them, this wasn't the time to be a crazy shrieky girl. So I tried to be professional. Sara Macdonald. Concert Organizer. Hmm!

Sarah Latheron showed up a while after and likewise I got her set up with parking passes, blah blah blah. Again. One of my favorite artists. Weird.


Colleen arrived about 6 o'clock and let me tell you I was NOT looking forward to dealing with her. She had been a real piece of work throughout the entire process. Was I ever shocked on Saturday! She was sweet and really flattering and kept telling me how impressed she was by my organization skills (ummm WHAT?). This is the same woman who told me that I shouldn’t try to book the Pit because she didn’t think it would draw enough people… Oh well! I’m not complaining! Maybe she had just had a bad… month. I’m really, really glad that I got to see this side of her. She introduced me to her supervisor for the evening, who was going to be managing things because she had to work at the Gallery. Sean was very nice, and I set up the tab, and then the coat check room. Then I got some cash to pay for some meals.

Hmm, what else did I do? Looking back I didn’t do a whole lot and yet I did. Again. Even though I was running around and everything was happening, I didn’t feel like I was overwhelmingly busy. I have a sneaky suspicion that there were a few people praying for some level-headedness on my part!!! Heck, even Ashlee made a comment to me on the drive home:

“You’d better be happy. I prayed for you today. Me. Praying. I had a nice little chat with God and I told Him that He should make everything go smoothly or I’d be pissed off. Minus the pissed off thing. I was scared He would hit me with lightning or something.”

That’s cute ;).

Cara got the info sheet under control and showed up flustered at about 6:30. I went over the schedule with her and Gina. The schedule that I worked so carefully on and that was rendered completely useless before I even woke up on Saturday.

Myke Madison came in and I spotted him buying a beer. I scooted up there and told the bartender to put it on the tab and Myke looked thrilled, like a kid in a candy store, or maybe a former frat boy getting free beer ;). It just goes to show you that a little bit can go a long way, you know? That’s one of the over-all lessons that were stressed in my heart and mind throughout this whole process. Even if you can’t pay people, you can let them know that you appreciate them. I did the standard passes / beer tickets / schedule spiel with him, but I’ve only seen him a couple times, so I had no problem being “professional”.

The best part of the evening was when people started showing up. And when people continued to show up. And when they didn’t stop showing up. :D.

Can you believe it, despite not sticking to my precious, precious schedule, we were ready to go on time? It was freakin’ awesome.

The worst part of the evening was MC-ing. I am definitely not a public speaker. Not good at it. Don’t like it. I didn’t screw up or anything, but I would much rather be working behind the scenes. I introduced the lovely Sarah and her band went on up and did their thing.

Man, did they ever do their thing… I love them. They sounded so good. And after those fooz working the burger bar turned off the bleeping pager, people seemed to be paying attention. If I’d had it MY way, Sarah wouldn’t have been first. I firmly believe that more people need to be exposed to her. But sometimes politics gets in the way of MY WAY. There were still a good number of people to enjoy her set. My favorite number was Flight 407. About 10 people came up to me and asked me where I’d found them and that they sounded awesome.

Speaking of sound – Chris did such a great job mixing them!!!!! Again, the problem with booking bands that you love and getting really talented people to mix is that sometimes you forget that you shouldn’t really just be standing there letting the beauty of the music hit you like a breeze.

I did some schmoozing… made sure the volunteers were doing ok, got juice for a couple of them (who knew juice could make someone happily sit in a coat check room for like 5 hours?). I saw so many of my friends there. I don’t think I mentioned that it was snowing at this point. And yet there they were, many in all their White Rockean glory. I know that some of them hate live music. I am so lucky to have them. Church friends (great turn out from the YA-ers), UBC friends, high school friends, Kwomais friends, people I’d harassed on the street (ok maybe not so much). Another one of the things that I learned is that my friends kick ass and I have been so blessed to be able to surround myself with such rad folks.

The set change was quick and efficient and it made me happy. Sometimes it takes F-O-R-E-V-E-R to get the bands on and off the stage and it makes me want to gnaw off my own arm and throw it at the sound guys. But no. My guys were so pro.

Adam spoke first. He is so adorable. I am really thrilled that he made it. He was caught in traffic and showed up about 5 minutes before he was scheduled to go on. He was very quick, different than the last time I heard him speak, but I think it was very appropriate for the evening.

Myke Madison was up next. Going back to the vision thing, and how almost EVERYTHING turned out the way that it had been when this idea popped into my head… Myke is the only major exception. To be honest, it wasn’t Myke’s band that was playing in my mind… it was Lotus Child. I was really impressed by him though. This is the best of the three times that I’ve seen him, and I liked that he didn’t have the three violin players. I commented after Richard’s on Richards that I thought he’d do better with just one, because they were always playing the same thing.

Garang spoke second, and I know that he had been so nervous. He told us that he was going to get drunk before going on hahaha. Sounds like something I would do if I had to give a speech. The audience again was really receptive, and they shhhhhed people for talking at first. I like that people have respect. The cool thing about Garang is that he’s actually from the South rather than from Darfur, so he reminded the audience that Darfur is not the only area that is in need in Sudan. Just like the tsunami isn’t the only problem facing the world right now. Speaking of which, I had a lot of people comment that it was neat to see that this was a benefit for something other than the tsunami. Sure, umm, it was planned before the tsunami hit, but regardless, they’re right.

Zahida and Ashlee sold 50-50 tickets for me. No wait let me clarify. Zahida sold 50-50 tickets for me and ASHLEE whored them, exchanging money for my secrets. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Oh dear. What am I going to do with that girl? She did manage to sell one to a festively drunk guy who insisted he would donate his half back to the cause if she fixed it so that he won.

Next up – STABILO. John makes fun of me, calling them Stabilo Freaking Boss until they dropped the Boss. Now I guess he’ll have to call them Sta-freaking-bilo or something like that. Anyway. I digress.

By the time they were up, I was a bit tired from running around for hours and so I propped myself up against a pole. Chris asked me to listen and tell him and Trevor if there were some problems with sound, but I warned him that I would essentially be useless, entranced by the Stabilo. Anyway, like it could possibly sound bad with THE Chris Davies and THE Trevor Meier mixing. So lucky to have scored those two.

I moved for an instant and Brian Crowe was in my spot. Then he left and Trevor took it. I happily allowed it… one had a video camera, the other a camera. Sweet. (Go to www.meiermg.com to see the pics.) I popped over to a bunch of different tables very briefly, but there was a seat beside Zahida near the front of the stage that was beckoning to me. Ahhh, sitting.

I don’t know what it is. Maybe I can’t multi-task very well. When I was just standing there or wandering around I was thinking that it was an awesome event but it wasn’t until I was off my feet that I really started to understand how cool the whole evening was.

Stabilo was amazing. I have so much respect for them as musicians and as people willing to use their talent to support a cause. Karl brought his stand up bass and Nate trimmed his kit a bit, so it had the most beautiful vibe. I don’t know if it was the set-up or the Chris Davies, but it reminded me so much of the Beautiful Madness EP [Chris worked on BM]. I’ll admit it. I may have allowed some tears to form. Not my fault. Pretty things affect me.

I realized, as I was leaning back in my chair, that there was another thing that had been missing from the elusive vision. It was on mute. There was no sound! That didn’t register with me until halfway through Stabilo’s set. The sound was amazing. Amazing. Amazing. Amazing.

The set list was a treat of oldies and newbies and they did NOT play Everybody (hurrah!). Coffee Spills, Fantasy, Laughing Nervously, Used to Be… and then when they did Ordinary I lost it. I’ve never heard it live. Jesse had said they would play for an hour max. Then when they were on stage they asked how long they had… I told them forever. Forever turned out to be almost an hour and a half. And even then it was because Chris had to use the facilities ;).

After they were done, we did the 50-50 draw and lo and behold, the festively drunk guy that Ashlee had sold a ticket to was the winner. He announced that he would be donating it back. He actually did. I’m glad he won!

And then it was over.

There were a few things that had to be dealt with afterwards, and I went to pay the bar tab. Sean asked me if I was ready, and I winced in preparation.

Sean: $113.20
Sara: What? That’s it?
Sean: Oh. Umm, I can add more if you want.
Sara: No, I promise you, you don’t need to do that.

Sounds like a big number, but I thought it would be a lot bigger. I mean, if I hadn’t had to drive maybe it would have been more like $1132.00 ;). No that’s not really true. I didn’t need the sauce to feel a high on Saturday. We did a bit of cleanup and then that was that. I thanked the staff (who did a GREAT job!) and then it was time to leave…

I can’t believe that Stabilo played this show. I can’t believe Sarh Latheron played this show. They all thanked me afterwards for asking them, and said they’d had a great time playing (ummm….they’re thanking ME?????). It seems unreal to me. Not that these people are superhuman or something. Just that it all happened, and that it all came together (and that they played this show :p).

I really had a lot of fun. I loved the PR aspect of it, the phone calls and the organizing. And I think I would like to do it again. I might pop in to Shea’s office sometime this week to thank him and see if there’s some sort of volunteer committee that does stuff like this. Or I could just go in there and announce my intention to usurp him and take his job:

Sara: Hey Shea thanks so much for picking up the tab for the sound guy and for answering all my questions and for helping me out with all of this! Oh and by the way I want your job so you’d better watch you back. K bye!

Mwuahahaha.

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Today's the Day

So all of the planning and craziness has led to today. I'm really excited, and of course a little bit worried that something will go wrong.

I was thinking about it last night though... honestly, this concert would have gone off even without the bands and the help that I have managed to secure. BUT IT WOULD HAVE SUCKED. Haha. I was at that Tsunami benefit last night and it was the most poorly organized event I've ever been to, other than a Fuhrmann family dinner maybe ;). I didn't even stay to hear Stabilo it was so bad.

But to continue, I was thinking last night, and this event has been so blessed by the most amazing bands and the most talented and amazing people working behind the scenes. To be honest, I'm thrilled. Tonight is going to be a treat.

I'm worried about the MC thing. I'm not really a fan of talking in front of groups of people, so I am less than thrilled that this has become my job. I'll deal, though. I also am feeling a bit shy about telling the bands what they need to do. I feel as though they should be telling ME what they want to do. But that's unrealistic and organization is key. God give me the guts and the tact to be firm but not bossy if need be!

I can't believe that we got Stabilo and Sarah Latheron. That is so classy!

And three speakers? Lucky lucky lucky! A triple threat. They're good, too, I've heard two of them.

I'm on edge. But the good news is that very few people will recognize a problem in the execution of the evening's program unless it's something major. Like I accidentally told Stabilo that it's January 15, 2004, told Myke Madison that it's January 14, 2005, and stared blankly at Sarah Latheron when she asked me when her band should arrive - "Arrive where? What are you talking about? What concert? Who ARE you?". Yeah that'd suck. Must avoid THAT like the plague.

Well... I probably have way better things to be doing right now...

T-minus 7.5 hours 'til show time. Eep!

Friday, January 14, 2005

"Two females found dead in freak toothbrush incident"

Megs slept over last night. It makes no sense whatsoever because she lives in North Van and has to go there today for class.... but whatever. We had a freakishly good time driving back to White Rock as usual. We usually spend about 1/2 of the time talking about Jesus and the other 1/2 shrieking like idiots about stupid things. This was no exception.

When it came time to brush our teeth we were both still laughing and nearly choked on our toothrbrushes at the same time. It was good times all around.

I went to bed at like 2 and woke up at 3 30 with thoughts of Sudan and the concert swimming around in my head. (When will I learn that coffee is my enemy?) So I spent the rest of the night with Meghan's occastional snoring and sleep talk providing the soundtrack to my thoughts.

OK now I have to catch le bus. But I'll leave you with this:

"This is the world's greatest parasite. It's going to steal everyrhing it wants from its host. And it doesn't stop for like 18 years. Interesting that it bears a striking resemblence to the way a tumor grows." - RH on embyro and fetus development.

Oooh, Megs just made me some coffee. *Clearly the lesson has not been learned*

Wired on coffee. Too much coffee. Shouldn't be allowed coffee. Sarah Latheron and her band of merry gentlemen kick ass. *jitter jitter*

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Miss Grumpy

I do not know what is WRONG with me! Mood swing city. One minute I'm a grump, then I'm beaming, then I'm grumpy again. It's stupid. I'm stupid.

But then sometimes people say things that make me laugh. So I'm going to share a few things that I heard today that I wrote down for silliness. Namely things that I heard my profs say. Maybe it will help me to not be such a crab!


"I find it really quite disgusting... but anyway, that's their custom." - AG

"A stag. It looks more like an ant but let's just go with it." - AS

"You're all EVIL. And so am I." - AS

"Lo and behold it reversed itself and he had to go in for a second vasectomy. Lucky stiff" [long pause... he realises the pun...] "Oh my gosh" [covers his face with his hand] - RH

"You're ugly! I'm running away." - PM

"I can't see the problem therefore there is no problem." - PM

"It becomes quite clear when you read the text" said TH, waving his laser pointer at an overhead of hieroglyphics.

"They went skinnydipping. It HAPPENS when you're around water." - AG

"Now that I've really gotten to know you, I don't like you." - AS

"Unless you live in Asia, DON'T FIGHT IN ASIA. Ohhhhh let's go fight in Asia!" - AS

Alright so some of those aren't really that hilarious. But I think they're kind of funny.

Cheers.

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

A Nice Cup of Tea III

I'm sick of being sick... I feel so useless. My concentration isn't up to snuff due to being stuffed up and medicated. I find my mind wandering (more than usual) and so I have spent a great deal of the last week worrying about this concert. Four days... it's coming up so quickly and still there are things to figure out. I'm trying not to get annoyed, because being annoyed doesn't fix things. Staying grounded and humble will not only help me mentally, but it's probably going to help me get better quicker than freaking out.

YA last night. I did sound. "I" "did" "sound". Basically I stood up there and slid a few faders up and down a couple times. I made sure that it didn't suck, though, because it's not as though I don't care. There weren't any complaints, not even from the friendly-but-high-maintenance VW-driving soundguy. He probably understood (from the dilated pupils and the dazed hello that I gave him) the unspoken truth: "I will cough ALL OVER YOU so don't push it". Aww I'm such a sweetheart. HAHAHAHAHA.

I went to Shelice's baby shower on Sunday. I tried to stay away from her, and Kell and I left a bit early... once I started to space out. Shelice looks so cute. She looks like herself, except there is a beachball under her shirt. I'm going to post a picture as soon as I feel so inspired. Maybe the one of her sitting in her mother's lap. Yeah. That one. My cousin is so beautiful! Such a lovely prego.

Speaking of beautiful and pictures, Jamie updated his website - http://mann270.tripod.com/ - I would once again urge you to take a peek. Talent like that makes me want to kick people's asses. Some sort of old skool throwdown. I don't know.

Church on Sunday was so interesting. I went in the evening, and by then I was spent. I wandered around dazedly for a while. I have no idea what Ross said. I was really, really spacing by then. I sat really close so that the fear of embarrassment would keep me awake. And it sure did. I couldn't sing, so I just clapped a little bit and observed everyone else worshipping. It was a very cool experience. One of the things that I love most about doing sound is that I am in a tiny way helping other people to experience Jesus and it's neat to see. But you're kind of removed when you're doing sound. This time I was in the crowd and surrounded by other worshippers. I thought it was really special. It made me very emotional. I had to leave a couple times to cough up first my right, and then my left lung, but yeah. I liked it. Very much.

Upcoming events that are fun:
January 13 (Thursday) - Sarah Latheron and her band of merry gentlemen - Backstage Lounge on Granville (pretty view of the bridge!) - 9 30 ish - $6 - Verdict? Oh yes. Sarah Latheron is so good. I cannot believe that we are fortunate enough to see them for $6. I've had this in my Palm since the end of November!

January 14 (Friday) - Chris Moerman and Jesse Dryfhout - Elgin Hall (White Rock) - 7 30 - $15 (goes to tsunami relief) - Verdict? Yeah I'll be there too. Ashlee was singing Everybody in her class last Tuesday and some guy's friend is putting this on. Small world. If, however, you can only attend one Stabilo concert in the next while, I would suggest the following day as an alternative ;)

January 15 (Saturday) - Stabilo, Sarah Latheron and her band of merry gentlemen, Myke Madison, Speakers from the Sudan, African drummers - UBC Pit Pub - 7 30 ish - $10 / $12 (goes to Sudan) - Verdict? I think we all know that I'll be at this one... it will be YOUR job to keep your anal retentive friend Sara from freaking out (you should probably keep her slightly liquored up at all times). This is going to be an amazing night I think. So far nearly everything has gone according to the vision that I had in my head. But... the vision also included a packed house, so I trust it'll be full.

I need a job. I had been hoping to get my resumes out last week, but then I got sick so that ruined everything. I would like to do something that actually makes a difference. Of course, most of those jobs are careers rather than part time work, or they are volunteer. If I didn't need money I'd just wander over to the church and tell them to put me to work. Alas. Money does make some things in this world go around. So ideally I will find a job that will allow me to help something or someone in some way. I don't care if it pays much. And if I can't do that, then I'll just take anything. Except maybe McDonald's... and even that's a maybe if push comes to shove.

So far Brea and Stef are winning my little quizzical. No one seems to know what kind of car I drive. Sneaky Bubba!

Ashlee wants me to edit her short story, so I think I shall do that. It's about a girl named Sara (who, go figure, seems a lot like me!) and her boyfriend (who, go figure, seems a lot like a guy that I might fancy). Only he gets killed while she gets stabbed and left for dead (but don't worry she survives!!)... it's called "Nightmare". I think I should be very nice to Ashlee... in fact maybe I should just tell her the story is perfect and not risk it............................

Sunday, January 09, 2005

Ooooh Take My Quiz!

As Janet Giltrow used to say, "It's just a little quiz. Quick, easy, and fun."

It's one of those "how well do you know Sara" quizzes that have nothing to do with anything.

Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

Fun stuff!

A Nice Cup of Tea II / STEF! II

(© TM)

Nice, hmm? That mouse looks a bit diabolical for my liking. Almost as though it has done something to the tea... something scandalous! I wouldn't drink it. I like that the box says BIG T though... Big T taken by Big T! Oh you'd better believe there is some knee slapping going on over here ;).

Stef left today. The kids picked me up at 7 30 and we drove her to the airport. I have to say this new medicine is working FAMOUSLY on the cold. I almost sound like a woman again! Not quite, but almost. So I'd like to plug it here:

USE ADVIL COLD & SINUS. USE ADVIL COLD & SINUS.

Anyway it was sad to see Stef go after all the craziness we got up to, but she got herself a window seat, and I know we'll see her again soon. Right, Stef? RIGHT?!

I was tempted to go to the 9 am at PPAC, but I hung out with the kids for a while instead. I've got a baby shower to go to this afternoon for Shelice... I can't believe she is due next month this is INSANITY. I must not go near her though if I'm sick... I'll put myself in plexiglass, like when drummers are too loud and need to be punished.

I'll go this evening to le P-Po instead... maybe I'll see if Kell wants to come. I stopped for a visit briefly yesterday and it was sweet; my mom was acting as though she hadn't seen me in AAAAGES. But I think I'll call Kell-Bell, though not this "early". She'll still be sleeping... Ashlee is still sleeping... Merlin (her dog) is still sleeping... And I'm far too chipper for my own good.

Saturday, January 08, 2005

For clarification...

Ashlee has become concerned that I'm being untrue to her literary capabilities in this here blog. Yes, she reads romance novels, but she wants me to tell you that she also reads John Stuart Mill and Geoffrey Chaucer. In addition, she has written two novels, with several others in progress. Lastly, she heads the Writer's Guild at Kwantlen.

"Is that better Ashlee?"

"Thank you. I feel as though my name has been cleared. I wouldn't want my public to be confused. Besides, I write my own romance novels under a different name."

There you have it.

A Nice Cup of Tea

Today was the first in 2 days that I've ventured outside. I was starting to suffer from cabin fever! I don't understand how I can be not getting better. I've been taking my medicine, sleeping lots, doing NOTHING for DAYS and yet, here I am, still sick, and perhaps getting worse. I drove over to the clinic today and the doctor says that at this point it's not bacterial, but he wrote me up a prescription for antibiotics, "just in case". Just in case? Doctors don't normally just give people prescriptions for the hell of it. So I'm not sure what that means, but I hope that I'm better by Monday! I have to go to UBC either way ;).

Being sick always pisses me off. I try to will myself better... "c'mon Sara you can do it". But I can't, unfortunately. I'm tired of feeling like crap, looking like I'm on morphine, and sounding like a male... and I don't like not being able to see people. Even when people call I have to get rid of them as soon as possible because it hurts to talk, as delightful as they are.

Meh. I figure I can handle being sick for a few more days AS LONG as I'm better in time for the concert. Because I WILL be there. No one else is up for MCing, so I'm going to be doing that, and it would help to have a voice (although we could probably raise some more money if we advertised Sara the Incredible Manly-Voiced Woman as part of some light circus entertainment).

I'm trying to console myself (whiny baby that I am), so when I was at Pennisula Village I picked up some Earl Grey because I like it and it makes me feel warmer. [NB it's decaf ;)].

Yesterday I read Frankenstein. It was really something. And I am really something - I managed to scare myself and get all creeped out thinking about it. I think I have an overactive mind. I KNOW I have an overactive mind. Needless to say, by the time I was ready to go to sleep, I had all these scary thoughts in my head and the windchime was slamming against the window downstairs like someone was trying to get it. SomeONE or someTHING!!!!! Soooo I ended up having to read one of Ashlee's Harlequin Romance novels for a little while before bed so that I wouldn't have nightmares... So far there's a cowboy from Florida named Slade, and a free-spirited woman named Karma who runs a matchmaking business. He's come looking for a wife (to help him run his ranch), and his dream woman is, of course, completely different from Karma. And yet, go figure! They are both instantly drawn to one another. When I left off, they were denying their common attraction, and she had just flipped her bicycle off the pier. Being a free spirit, she had come wearing a sari, which conveniently floated away once she fell into the water. Don't worry, though, folks, he's a cowboy, remember? True to their gallant and gentlemanly reputation, Slade left to fetch her a robe, which he tossed to her after turning his back. Nothing like slapstick pre-smut smut to clear the head of all its woes ;).

I think I'm going to have some more tea. And pretend that I'm not staying in (again), on a Saturday night ;). On that note, I'm up for msn chats HINT HINT. :D. In case YOU feel like staying in as well.

Friday, January 07, 2005

Yeah.... no

The world is not ready for me on a day like today. Considering I'm freezing cold in the house, wearing pjs, two pairs of socks AND the old-man housecoat, I don't think I'm going to school today. I stepped outside and the wind is a-howlin'. The odd thing is that the only day of class that I missed LAST term was the first Friday... I had the flu and I watched a CSI marathon. Well let me tell you, that won't be happening today! But somehow I'm feeling just as bad if not worse than I did yesterday, so I just don't want the experience of opening the the door again!

Thursday, January 06, 2005

HCT

everytime i look at you / the world just melts away / all my troubles, all my fears / dissolve in your affection / you see me at my weakest / but you take me as i am / when i fall you offer me a softer place to land

you stay the course, you hold the line / keep it all together / you're the one true thing i know i can believe in / you're all the things that i desire / you save me, complete me / you're the one true thing i know i can believe in

i get mad so easy / but you give me room to breathe / no matter what i say, you'll do / because you're too good to fight about it / even when i have to push / just to see how far you'll go / you wont stoop down to battle but / you never turn to go

you stay the course, you hold the line / keep it all together / you're the one true thing i know i can believe in / you're all the things that i desire / you save me, complete me / you're the one true thing i know i can believe in

love is just the antidote / nothing else can cure me / there are times I cant decide / when i cant tell up from down / you make me feel less crazy / otherwise i'd drown / but you pick me up and brush me off / you tell me I'm ok / Sometimes thats just what we need / to get us through the day


- S.M.

Ashlee is sick. Meghan is sick. Zahida is sick. I am sick. Everyone STAY AWAAAAY.

Ashlee has digital cable so we got to watch the new CSI at six instead of nine. Mwuahahahahaha! Greg got promoted to CSI (finally!). I must remember that these people are not real...

Ashlee is laughing to herself right now... she's watching anime. I don't know what I think of this...

OK I am going to go to sleep. Because I still be illin'. But night night!

[And I didn't write that song, I just thought it would be fun to mislead the reader for a little while... I think the lyrics are cute and Sarah McLachlan and I have the same initials.]

400 is the magic number

- 1 cup of coffee = me buzzed for hours
- 1/2 a Smirnoff Ice = me already feeling it
- 1 dose of cough syrup = me loopy

It's amazing how little it takes for me to go nuts. It's almost time for me to drug myself up again, too! Mwuahahaha.

Ashlee has a fetish for country music. I knew this coming into the game. I didn't realise, however, that the fetish often extends to country music videos on full blast. The best part is that she just turned it up, literally as I was typing that. We all have our quirks... I'll just have to dequirk her hehehe.

Yesterday was the first day of the new semester, and it started bloody early! I left by 6 40 am and didn't get home til nearly 7 30. But it's worth it to have Tuesday and Thursday off. It's worth it it's worth it. I'm just glad that I don't work downtown. Three hours of commuting every day for years would be intolerable I think.

I have an Irish prof for Eng 221 which is really cool. I love his accent. We're starting with Frankenstein, so my guess of 1984 wasn't exactly dead on, but it was a great book nonetheless.

Art and Architecture of Ancient Egypt 304 looks like it's going to be pretty interesting. This prof is a German, though seemingly not so much a crazy German. I had a feeling that you couldn't really base an entire class on that subject, so I'm relieved to confirm that we're going to be getting a lot of history in there as well.

I've got Eng 230b with Globe again, and it should be good. Even though we have to read half of Exodus for tomorrow. I think I might just... not. I've read it before. It'll all come back to me I'm sure.

Poli 260 also looks like it's going to be pretty interesting. The prof wrote the textbook, so I think he will probably know the material covered in it, unless he wrote it on an extended opium binge. He even made fun of himself by saying, "I think the man who wrote this is, quite frankly, a genius" and then nearly knocked a table over. He basically talked about his field and the things going on in our little world today:

Sens: And what the hell is going on in the Sudan? What the HELL is going on?!!!!

Needless to say he is fine with me mentioning the concert to the class next time ;).

Oh...

Ashlee (just now, yelling at the tv angrily): SCREW YOU, SHANIA! Shania is a country sellout, that stupid homewrecker. MAKE IT GO AWAY.

And now she's fully aware of the fact that I'm writing down the things that she's saying. It wasn't me! It was the one-armed man! Either that or it's the cough medicine.

And I have bio again as well..........................

Moving on.

I had a nice two hour break during which I put up about 150 posters. Pretty good, huh? Then I went by Shea's office and introduced myself (in my hello my name is Mr. Macdonald cough hack wheeeeeze style)and give him some posters. Apparently UBC has a promotions TEAM that helps to put up posters and stuff. Sweet. Better than me.

After all of my classes I had a meeting with Gina and Cara, the girls who are helping me organize the concert. Things seem like they're going ok... when we were done I went down to the Pit and gave the woman a poster to put up. She really, really discourages me. Every time I talk to her. She seems so negative. I think she thinks the concert is going to be a bust, which has me a bit paranoid. She looked the poster up and down and remarked, "ooooh do you think you can actually sell out? That's more than we usually charge." Well you usually don't have Stabilo. You usually don't have bands that are good at all. And this time we have three. I'm trying not to be down in the dumps. I think there are 400 people who would go... we just have to reach them somehow. I bought my ticket last night. From the pile that I have. I'm trying to keep things optimistic by setting an example... although I'm SURE I could sneak in ;).

Of course I'd love to sell out. But even 250 would be great. They basically said we have to guarantee 200. I didn't think it would be a problem. No, I DON'T think it will be a problem. She is just negative. And it's spreading. Must not get dejected. Must get healthy instead. No, it's too late. I'm all worried again. Haha.

I think it's stupid that people respond to some things with such vigor, and others with none whatsoever. Like, why is there a Sudan benefit now? Why not years go? Well in my case it was a flash of an idea that hit me while I was sitting at the Cactus Club on Broadway, so maybe that's not the best example :P. It seems odd to me that it hasn't gathered more attention, and it frustrates me that this is the way that the world is structured. Truly, I understand that you can't give to everything. But if everyone gave a little bit, things would suck less. The tsunami and earthquake that happened a few weeks ago is definitely a tragedy of terrible loss and destruction - according to Gina (she's the president of the UBC Red Cross) 3 billion US has been raised so far. I think that is spectacular.

I just wonder why people (and I don't pretend that I'm not included) don't invest more (money and of their SELVES) into things that maybe can be prevented? Tsuami's you can't control. But what about the killing of the innocent... it's not even a money thing so much as informing people I guess. Just as many people have died over there... and let's not get started on AIDS. Meh this certainly isn't something to be reconcilced in my blog ;). But if I let myself get depressed by thinking about all these things all the time, then I'm not really going to be very useful. I DO think it is pretty awesome that 3 billion has come in so far for tsunami relief. It means that we aren't numb yet. And we aren't like Oceaniac society in 1984 (good book good book) where everyone is driven by hate and fear. Maybe our problem is just apathy. I think our "problem" should be love :D!! Hahaha! They laughed at me in philosophy when I suggested that the moral theory of our society should be based on love. Love for God, love for ourselves, and love for others. I'm a bit naive and it's base I know, but it's all good ;).

Wow I started this 45 mins ago. But I took a phone call and Ashlee made me watch a music video and I coughed up one of my lungs in the meantime.

I'm going to make chicken wings for dinner...

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

I Be Illin'

I have a cold, but I was thinking about it last night... I haven't had a cold yet this school year. It's quite extraordinary - I was born 2 months early so I tend to be more susceptible to getting colds.

I moved into Ashlee's last night, but I was smart enough to bring my old man house robe. So I'm wearing my old man slippers that my dad got me for Christmas, my old man robe, and some nice comfy pjs. I'm so glad that I don't have class today. I think I'll just lose myself in 1984 (though I didn't appear on the scene until a year later ;)!) and take it reeeeeaaallly easy. This cold really snuck up on me, the little sneak.

Sunday night I went to a really nice place on Broadway, right across from Mountain Equipment Co-Op. It's called Martini's. Cheap and excellent meals, great service, nice restaurant, and of course the company was terrific. I would definitely recommend going there. And seeing the girls was really nice.

Yesterday was Monday, right? Yes it was! What the heck did I do yesterday? Oh yeah! I went to A & B Sound with Stef because she had a 150$ credit that she needed to spend, and I had to take back the cd that I got for Kell for Christmas because she got the same one from my aunt. I also handed in my application. I need a job. Really, really badly.

After I dropped Stef off, I picked up Megs and all her stuff and we drove to North Van to drop it off at her place there. I met her landlady. She does seem crazy. Megs' parents went up to Whistler, so she didn't want to have to bus there with all her shiza. We had fun anyway. Probably too much fun. There's this guy in her choir who raps on the side... but it doesn't make me want to stab people! It's not bad! He's a Christian rapper... and if you ignore a few of the lines like "me and my peeps be illin'", there are some amazing lyrics there!! I was shocked! So we listened to that cd. And I'm more convinced than ever that I should be a rapper! Kidding. Kidding. I still don't like rap as a rule. The c is silent you know ;).

Then my family went to dinner with my grandparents, who are going back to Arizona today. Lucky ducks! I went there once... it smells like orange blossoms. That's what I remember most.

Oh wow, do I ever have a deep and seductive voice right about now. Well, seductive if I were a guy perhaps. It's spectacular. I wonder why people's voices get deep when they're sick.

Hmm... maybe what I SHOULD do today is print off some more applications and fill them out. Then when I'm no longer germ-infested, I can drop them off. That'd be great. Hack all over the manager as I'm trying to give them my resume... the only way to success!

The Sudan concert is less than two weeks away... I can't believe how quickly it's come up.

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Zahida you Hummelbein!!!!!!!!

"Sara was crying (leaking) like a raving lunatic, the sap she is"
- http://superzeeadventures.blogspot.com/2005/01/watched-kettle-never-boils.html

OH YEAH?????!!!

Well.

ZAHIDA WET THE BED UNTIL SHE WAS 22 AND SLEEPS WITH A NIGHTLIGHT!

Ha. Take that!

- Sara

ps - I diiiiid nooooooooot.

Puddle Monkey.

Kiri's now in Calgary. I hope the flight was safe, my dear.

We were going to go to Crescent Beach yesterday but it was too cold so we just drove by it. Haha. I dropped her off and then went home for a few hours and read a bit. I am reading 1984 right now.

[Tangent: I love this book - it's really making me think. Of course this might be a bad thing... I really think far too much. And then I let one thought lead to another and it starts an entire new tangent of thinking and then some thoughts get really deep and then they sometimes start contradicting one another and I can just sit for hours... anyway yeah that's what this book is doing to me... in fact I wish I were reading it right now... right this second... but I can't until I finish packing or it will most likely consume me and then I'll be late leaving this evening]

Afterwards, I went to Kiri's to see her, Matt, Morgan, and Bridget. It was very interesting indeed. Lots of old memories! As it turns out, Bridget told me that she would be at PPAC this morning - for her mom and stepfather's baptism!!

I swung by Megs' this morning and we went for coffee and a crazy chat. I think I'm going to help her move her stuff back to North Van tomorrow. It gives us car time. And like I'm sure I've mentioned, car time with Megs is always doubleplusgood (it means really really good in Newspeak... if you haven't read 1984 do it NOW)!

At the 11 15 I ran into B(ridget) and met her mom.

Five people got baptized this morning. I always cry at baptisms. It's like... I'm leaking or something. I sat between Sean and Zahida and they were both making fun of me. Grrr. I'll have to refer them to my good friend Gimpy the snowman, and remind them of what happens when people piss me off :). So I cried a bit. About five times. Bridget's mom used the same verse as me in her testimony - Revelation 3:20.

After a very awakening service, Z and I went for lunch, which was cool because I haven't seen her in ages. She got me a really cool scarf for Christmas, and it's... really cool. Doubleplusgood! We talked about idolatry and stuff like that. I'm not going to set any resolutions for the year, but rather goals that I can ease into. I need to refocus a bit I think. I've been talking with Jesus a bit more in the last few days (finally), and I told Him that I'm going to work on a few things... maybe it will help this problem I've been having with not really being able to pray.

For a few months back there, I was introduced to this whole new world of prayer and it was fantastic. And now it seems like it's gone. Which kind of sucks. If I hadn't known prayer could be so powerful, maybe I wouldn't miss it so much, but now that I know what it CAN be like, I WANTS IT! I don't know if it's something that's changed, something that I need to fix... or if it's just a period of time that I need to work through. I'd feel better if I had some idea as to what's causing it... it could be that the answer is right there and I'm not paying attention, or maybe I'm blowing everything way out of proportion hehe.

As far as idols are concerned, there are a few that seem almost like prisms to me. I aim towards the goal, and I shoot my beam in the direction that I think I'm supposed to shoot, but then things get into its path, and the beam is spread out into all sorts of directions and not a whole lot ever makes it to the destination. There's still too much getting in the way. My intentions. Some distractions that I wish weren't there. I suspect however, that God has placed them there for a reason, and I even think I know why some of them are there :p.

Soooo yes we talked about that a bit, and Zahida says she'll pray for my praying (har har).

I have been listening to a LOT of Queen in the last few days. I love it. Kell actually got it for Christmas, and I immediately burned it. Killer Queen is my current favorite.

Tonight I'm meeting up with some girlfriends from Arts One and I'm psyched because I haven't seen Veronica or Miranda since April, and it's been too long since I've seen Helen as well. We're going to Martini's. I've never been there, but I won't be having any. Sounds interesting though.

Ok enough, unless you want a laugh at me. If you want to laugh at me, refer to the poster in my last post and ask yourself what a concent is. The girl who made the poster messed up the email address, so I had to quickly scoop that one up. Just in case. Ahhh it's turning into a comedy of errors. But I'm going to buy my ticket soon! Might as well lead by example.

Saturday, January 01, 2005

Happy New Year... and some grumble grumble


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Ooooh January 1, 2005! Not January 15, 2004 or January 14, 2005, but the first of a new year. Here are John and Stef, already festively into the drink, flailing and posing seductively for my camera.

I found this new years was a bit of a bust, mostly due to my own attitude, and to being tired.

So... it's a new year. Any one make any resolutions? I haven't yet.

This morning I took Smeagol for a really long walk, and it was terrific. The weather is really nice right now. We walked down 24th, and then John drove by. I guess they all slept over at Brea's. Then I decided that Rox and I should walk to Brea's! She's on 168th, so off we went. Past the driving range, past the condemned house, past the Bonsai garden. Hang a left at the Best Market and, SURPRISE BREA! IT'S A SARA!

The last bit of the walk home was a bit much for Dog, and she was wiped out, pink sweater and all, as we rounded the home stretch.

It seems my blog has been visited by the Grammar Nazi ;). Silly Zahida! If I want to use "pretty" as a noun, well that's your problem, not mine. I'll sound as uneducated as I please! [Note: Zahida I'm just teasing, you know this, right? Also, I'm moving to Ashlee's for January because her parents have gone to Mexico and I'm helping her housesit, though the helping part should be "helping".]

Kiri is leaving me. Again. (Grumble grumble.) Why must you toy with me like I'm some sort of toy???? It sucks. I hate Alberta. Calgary and Edmonton both suck because they keep luring my friends away. Kiri... Devon... Bridget...

I think we're going to go to Crescent Beach, because they don't have beaches in Calgary:

Alberta: Beach? What's a beach? Sorry, I'm too busy being sneaky and mean and stealing people, Sara. Pffft. Who needs a beach when I have a Kiri?

Ouch! You've got me there, Alberta! And here I go, talking to inanimate objects again. Nice to see that I haven't become any less CRAZY in '05.

OK. Crescent Beach here we come. MAYBE I WILL SEE SOME PRETTY?!

Speaking of pretty, I've got more pictures of my stunning friends at Brea's, though I left before ten. They're at my flickr thingr.