One Million Voices

This is for Miss Zahida Pants, who will go Sara-less for two whole weeks. Sheesh, woman, you talk as though I'll never see you again!

Key events... umm let me see if I can focus.

Rock for Peace brought in just under $2500 and 350 people. Freakin' fantastic.

Bye bye, Whistler House. My parents accepted an offer yesterday for the good old "log cabin" up in the mountains. I'll certainly miss the dear, but that money is going to be really quite something... I suppose we'll see what happens. It means that we won't be going up there in February so I'm going to have to find some way to use my three days of Whistler skiing that I still have this season. Anyone really suck at skiing and want to suck with me? Maybe I'll drag Megs up there. She doesn't suck, but we'd still have a good time mwuahahaha.

I worked today at Tomko. It was great to see Nicki again, and because it's so cold in the warehouse, I didn't have to even set foot in there. I did some fairly mundane tasks, but I like the mundane once in a while, for it allows me to think.

So. I went to see Hotel Rwanda last night with Trevor. It was good - not in a "oh I feel good after seeing this film", but I think it was in itself, well done. Does that make sense? Not a perfect movie of course, but what movie is? It really... I don't know... there were a few times where I was lost in feelings of helplessness... and then I was filled with hope... I don't know. I just don't know.

I don't understand how people can be filled with hate like that... I don't see how people can believe those lies. I wish people would just love each other. (Yeah, isn't that the understatement of the century.) Dammit. It frustrates me.

I think it's important to challenge yourself and to watch things like Hotel Rwanda - it's Hollywood-ized, but you can still see that it's important to not forget the mistakes of the past. But then you look at what's happening now... in the Sudan, only one of several examples. $2500 bucks. That's pretty great right? But is that going to change things? No, of course it isn't. The problem with thinking and dwelling in all of this is that it makes all of our efforts seem so futile and it makes me want to not do anything. "So God gave me some vision, so what?" It makes me want to cloister myself up in my house and do nothing. Then there's a part of me that says, well, it's $2500 that they wouldn't have had if so many people hadn't decided to care just a little bit. "So God gave me some vision, so let's go!!" Again, I don't know what to think. I'm such a mess of thoughts whenever I try to tackle anything substantial. Maybe that's why I tend to stick to the likes of Spongebob and Co., where their problems can be solved in 8 or so minutes. I feel like I need to run into battle, try to fix something, anything, but I kind of want to hide as well. Like, if I don't SEE the problem, then it isn't there... I'm an ostrich, what can I say?

I've been thinking that I should start a blog called Sara's Rantings hahaha. Then I can delve a bit more. I probably think too much and I need to get it out :p. Even in reading what I've just written, I wonder if this is how I really feel. Interesting.

But anyway, I have class early again tomorrow... night night.